WHERE DO I BELONG?

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A new poem By Selvi Sado

Co-Author of the poetry book Only When Desire Screams

Am I perfect?
Does it really matter?
I don’t know,
And I don’t know if perfect everything I do,
I don’t know if life is supposed to go slow,
Without a bless,
Of routine endless,
Doing nothing but: Stay at home, eat, sleep, repeat and off to work,
Is life this boring?
Is it supposed to be like this?
Do we need to do something about it?
I feel we do,
At least I do.
I want to live a little,
And enjoy my youth,
Eat the ice cream I like,
Buy that one shirt kept on my card,
But didn’t ever buy,

Have the money but I’m not sure why.
Nor am I sure if I need to wear the perfume,
Long I kept for those occasional moments,
Which are very rare.
I want to travel the world,
Or at least places I always dreamt of visiting,
Far more important sometimes I feel,
I am not lost,
But I need to find myself,
Where do I belong?
If I will not be lucky enough to find it,
Then…
Then it is supposed to be OK,
No?
Am I perfect or am I not?
Does it really matter?
I am a girl,
And I can do anything I like,
OK?
No?

Also by Selvi Sado

About the author

Adel Bishtawi

Adel S (Said) Bishtawi is a British, Maltese and Palestinian national. A career journalist, he was central managing editor of the Emirates News Agency, co-founder of two U.K. newspapers and the Syrian Writers Association. He published more than 20 books in Arabic and English the latest is ‘The Common Stone Age Origins of English, Akkadian and Arapīte & Greatest Gods of Homo Sapiens’.
Adel was born in Nazareth, Palestine, 1945. He read English Literature at Damascus University, attended short courses of familiarisation of languages including Latin, German and Russian, and attended a course in Linguistics at the Central London Polytechnic.

A journalist since the late 1960s, he became Front Page Editor of Al Arab Newspaper (London), the first pan Arab Newspaper launched in Europe. In 1978, he joined Jihad Al Khazin in launching Asharq Al Awsat Newspaper (London) as Business and Supplements Editor. In 1980, he was appointed Central Managing Editor of the Emirates News Agency in Abu Dhabi, United Arab Emirates. In 1988, he joined Jamil Mrowa (who later re-launched the Daily Star in Beirut in 1996) in London for the re-launch of Al Hayat Newspaper and continued under the editorship of Jihad Al Khazin until he left in April 2001 to dedicate what is left of his time to literary and historical writing. as well as investigating origins by means of historical and etymological linguistics.

Adel produced and co-produced a number of TV documentaries. He produced, directed and wrote “Muslims along the Silk Road”, a five part-60-minutes-each documentary tracing Muslim culture and heritage and the legacy of Muslim pioneers and merchants along the Silk Road starting from China.